Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Guarding that heart.....

Whoa! It has been quite a while since I have been back on the blog wagon but life is finally starting to settle into place for me here, and I’m ready to open up about more than I have before. Some people may ask why someone would want to share their life and innermost thoughts with the blogosphere, but if I could help just ONE person from making the mistakes I’ve had, or push someone a tad bit in the right direction, I’m all about it.

Being single, expecting a beautiful baby girl, and starting over is most definitely not where I thought I would be at this stage in my life. I look back at previous years and see myself in a different world, pretty much an entirely different universe. Sometimes when we hit rock bottom, the only place to look is up. There are a million different ways to say this, we can put it so many different little quotes we hear here and there, but when you are at rock bottom, none of that matters. All that we feel is that hurt, pain, heartbreak… and you know what I think hurts even worse?? When the word AGAIN follow those other feelings.

As I begin to catch up on many things that have been going on, God has laid it on my heart to talk more about it. More about deeper feelings, real things that I know other people are dealing with, and it’s also therapeutic to me to have all of you to see. Weird? Yeah, but hey. I’m a weirdo. ;)

Never let vulnerability, while often humiliating, let you feel weak. Sometimes in life, actually a lotta times, it is entirely necessary. Would love matter as much, without the risk of possible pain? Makes me wonder.

I’m going to be writing all night. I’m studying a lot about the verse I have tattooed on my right arm Proverbs 4:23 – And above all else, GUARD YOUR HEART, for it is the wellspring of life.

I think so much of where I am today, is because I haven’t done so. I’m ready to learn to do it with the help of He, that helps me get through each day.

LOVE YOU. So very much. :)




(that are NEVER related to my posts, btw)

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